I've been feeling a little out of control lately. Oddly enough, though, it's not because of outside influences. I feel like I can't control myself in the ways I want to. There are things that I want to do, but I don't do them. There are things that I want to say, but I don't say them. This hasn't been much of a problem in the past....Why has it chosen to present itself? I'll have to think on this for a while, and then (hopefully) act. Maybe what I need is something drastic to break myself out of a rut.
On a completely different subject, I hope you all are happy. Cementhorizon and this bloggy little thing has drastically reduced my updating frequency on IAM.BMEZINE. I just can't keep two "diaries" going at the same time. Just in case you're wondering, you can't get to IAM unless you submit an "experience" regarding some sort of bodymod (piercing, tattoo, etc.). If you do have one of these things, I highly recommend submitting an experience and trying IAM out. It took a while, but I've met some amazing people through it. Plus, until Cement Horizon came around, it was my main place to rant n' rave. Now the diatribes have become a bit more diluted, but it's hard to keep these things going on two fronts at once.Posted on June 25, 2002 12:00 PM